Yours

By Ren Ryun Chang

Take my entire

purpose

make it a deeper meaning

whatever you want

I’m not a puppet on strings

if I’m yours to play and tease

call my introspection your entire belief

your godless faith

wear your heart on your long black long sleeves

wince

grimace

suck the blood vessels off your bottom lip

tear your flesh

chewed up in my mouth

pierced pretty overlapping tooth marks

with the acrylic of my vampire fangs you

place fingers in my gums

write your favourite number in my veins

it’s never over til it always almost destroys me

breaking me down til I break skin

like Jesus broke bread

I like to bleed

masochistic in life not just in the sheets

told my therapist I took breathing for granted

I don’t want to grow where I’m planted.

I wanna be beaten so I know I am changed